Long Time No Post, how I am better today than I was yesterday, and I hope to be a positive person for others

by Peter Marus

It’s been a while since I written on this thing.  I’ve been occupied with life, and as much as I wanted to write something here, I'm either too tired or too occupied to do so.  


In the time I have not written here, I’ve done a lot of thinking.  Along with this, I decided to do a few things to try to make life better.  Most of these changes are based on my experience doing Brazilian Jiu Jitsu.  


BJJ has been an eye-opener for me.  I've been getting my ass kicked a lot in class, as expected, but I feel good about it and stronger from it.  It’s confidence through humility.  It’s also has gotten me to be more patient and think a lot more in what I do and what I should do.  Also the class itself is so positive and supportive.  There’s no shit talking or anything that puts anyone down.  If I do something wrong, Professor Jucao or whoever I'm training with will help me out in getting what I am wrong corrected.  I won’t lie, and I still look like a rank amateur when I’m rolling, but I am slowing picking things up.  this is where my patience is getting better-most have to commit their lives to the art to master it, I won’t in a month.  I know it will take time to get this down and be able to succeed.  


The positive attitude of the class and the people has led me to do something I should have done a long time ago.  I'm starting to shed some of the negative people in my life and focus on and hang out with those who are more positive.  By positive, I'm not talking about the bullshit “Everything is great”-type of person, but those who live their lives in a way where they try to make the best of what they got/where they are, and if there’s a problem, they try to fix it as best as they can.  I'm tired of being around and associating with negative people who wallow in their bullshit, make the situation about them and how they are allegedly a victim in every bad thing they have happen to them, and be the parasite sucking the positivity from all around them in order to bring everything to their level of insecurity and misery.  


 I'm tired of these pieces of garbage who won’t do anything to make things better for themselves, and i say everyone should do the same.  These people should be shunned for their choice to be whiny little bitches.  If that’s not right to you as far as me not helping a fellow human, again they CHOOSE to live this way, and as I always say, life is nothing but a series of choices and you have to live with the results of the choices you made.  This is also part of why I decided to detach myself from a lot of the soccer supporters, since many of them are exactly what I don’t need/want around me.  Negativity is like an anchor around you, why carry that shit?  The difference between “Can’t” and Cunt” is A U.


Finally, and I know this whole entry is a clusterfuck as far as order, BJJ has taught me that as physically strong as you are, you ain’t shit without mental strength.  Physical Strength will always be beaten by technique any day.  I'm trying to fill my head with everything I can to make myself strong in the head as much as in the body.  I'm also starting to alter my diet and do yoga to get my body ready and better.  I'm doing research on things to try and ask about in class to mentally strengthen myself for BJJ.  


Lesson of the entry:  Learn from your passions, keep positive, and always make yourself better today than you were yesterday.