So happy Easter to everyone who reads this. I had my annual trek to Jersey to see family. Was an interesting trip. I went and it was, just there. Don't get me wrong, it was nice to see my family, but it didn't feel special as much as it used to. Maybe getting older makes these holidays more numb and me being a tad jaded took away from it, I don't know. Like I said, I've felt like this about a lot of things in my life. I'm sure this is just a stage where I'm in the down part, and maybe this summer it will cause an up part. That's the interesting thing someone told me about Easter. I was told that since this was the resurrection of Christ and the rebirth of spring, that this should be looked at a rebirth and resurrection of one's self as well. But I'm not one to get my hopes up with anything anymore, if it happens it happens.

All that I am feeling now could also maybe attributed to just frustration and not knowing some things. Between my job situation, and some other matters money wise and such, it's just frustrating seeing where I am, where I would like to be, and the gap between the two. I guess I have to wait until after the summer to find out a lot of the answers to the questions I have, and between now and then just keep doing what I am doing with what I know.